We are a society that values hustle. Values those who push through the tough stuff. Succeed. Overcome.
But sometimes you need rest. If you’re a performance driven person like me giving yourself permission to rest is hard. And while I can veg out and be lazy with the best of them I often felt like I had to earn it.
I was recently talking to my counselor about how I feel like my body is betraying me this year. Two surgeries. Hormone issues. Multiple trips to the doctor. The plague. 😉 I work so hard to eat healthy, exercise daily, take supplements to support my body-what’s happening? That’s just it-I work hard at it.
She pointed out to me Bessel Van Dee Kill’s book, “The Body Keeps the Score” and told me if I were to timeline out everything that I’ve done or that has happened to me in the past two years I wouldn’t be surprised that my body said, “I’m done. I’m out, no more”.
So, I’m trying to be kinder to myself. Allow more rest. Take more breaks. Not be so hard on myself if I sit down and do nothing. I am doing something. I’m healing.