Sometimes this profile acts as a journal – a place to send my voice out into the ether. To give voice to thoughts in my head when they get too loud.
I’m reading a book with a child going through a medical crisis. Always a dangerous thing when I’ve been through too many medical crisis with my children and my diabetic is currently struggling to get the care he needs.
He’s 25 and 12 hours away so there’s not a lot I can do other than trust God loves him more than I do. Same thing I’ve been believing since he was 8 years old.
The thing is, I put this concern on our church prayer chain Thursday when I was feeling especially helpless. At church today I was astounded at how many women expected immediate results from their prayers. I was astounded that they really believed that would happen. I’ve rarely experienced immediate answers to prayer. For comfort, for peace, yes. But answers, finances, or needed material items? No.
No, I’ve learned over the years that God is in the waiting and rarely gives immediate answers to prayers. If He did that we’d expect it. Maybe others have experienced that but I haven’t. I have to work on trust and not jumping in trying to solve my problems without waiting on God. One mom expected me to drive to Memphis and fix this for Aaron. No, because what does Aaron learn from that? Besides learning nothing about being his own advocate and how to maneuver the medical field himself, he also learns nothings about prayer and faith. He doesn’t get the opportunity to find God in the waiting.
Does that mean I won’t call him later and see what else he can do? No, I’ll definitely be doing that. But I’ll also remind him Gods got this and that He loves him more than I. I’ll remind him to look for God in the waiting.
Diffusing Hope 